new chapter of my life

Alhamdulillah on the 7 of June 2009, i'm official belongs to my husband..Mai...
Frm Ms Irma now is Mrs Irma...we have past our greatest "dugaan" tht i cant imagine tht i will face that situation...
It really teach me what is sacrifice mean n i hv to sacrifice alot for this relationship and for others happiness..
I'm not sure what is waiting for me in the next few minutes, months, years and future but i hope for the best n I know Allah is always be with me...no matter how ... life must go on even it was not as we expected n dream of...this reality...no more fantasy..
the real situation that we have to face...Alhamdulillah i still standing on my own feet, still can take a deep breath n still can be n with peopel that i luv .... "my family, my hubby, my best friends n click and also friends that always guide me n help me either mentally r Physically ... thanks so much...n thanks Allah... Only Creator ...

Tertutup sudah pintu .. pintu hatiku ~

Tertutup sudah pintu .. pintu hatiku
Yang pernah dibuka waktu hanya untukmu
Kini kau pergi dari hidupku
Kuharus relakanmu walau aku tak mau

Berjuta warna pelangi didalam hati
Sejenak luluh bergening menjauh pergi
Takada lagi cahaya suci
Semua nada beranjak aku terdiam sepi

Dengarlah matahariku suara tangisanku
Kubersedih kerna panah cinta menusuk jantungku
Ucapkan matahariku puisi tentang hidupku
Tentangku yang tak mampu menaklukan waktu

Berjuta warna pelangi didalam hati
Sejenak luluh bergening menjauh pergi
Takada lagi cahaya suci
Semua nada beranjak aku terdiam sepi

tErCipta uNtukkU ~

Menatap indahnya senyuman diwajahmu
Membuat ku terdiam dan terpaku
Mengerti akan hadirnya cinta terindah
Saat kau peluk mesra tubuhku

Banyak kata
Yang tak mampu kuungkapkan
Kepada dirimu

Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Disetiap langkah
Yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku
Sepanjang hidupku

Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Disetiap langkah
Yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku
Meski waktu akan mampu
Memanggil seluruh ragaku
Ku ingin kau tau
Kuslalu milikmu
Yang mencintaimu
Sepanjang hidupku

Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Disetiap langkah
Yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku
Meski waktu akan mampu
Memanggil seluruh ragaku
Ku ingin kau tau
Kuslalu milikmu
Yang mencintaimu



;'o(


"tErCipta uNtukkU"

a song that u gave me when we have a big fight last 3 weeks...
i'm touch with the song not only by it lyric even the melody itself
i terharu n i'm glad that u appreciate me
lirik lagu tue terlalu besar nilainya seperti terciptanya hawa untuk adam
untuk menemani dan mendampingi serta berkongsi suka dan duka dalam kehidupan
seorang insan yang dianugerahkan dan dijadikan dari sebahagian dari tulang rusuknya
yang selalu dekat dengan hatinya untuk disayangi dan dihargai
that time i'm glad that u will be apart of me but .... ;'o(
now......
u really make me disappointed....ishk...ishk...
Y did u this to me? Y?
u've destroyed my dream
u killed my trust on u
u lie to me.....

If I'm the one for u y did u do this to me??????!!!!!!!

U really make me really2 disappointed on u....
U really make my heart broke into pieces....
U really make me sad....
U make me cried....

How can i accept that?

kesedihan yg tak boleh digambarkan....terlalu sedih n berat hati ini untuk menanggungnya


DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Kebesaran MU

*Sesungguhnya Engkau tidak akan menduga umatMu melainkan hanya sekadar mengikut kemampuannya dan untuk meninggikan martabatnya....


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Ya Allah begitu besar dugaanMU ini,
Ku redha dengan segala ketetapan dan ketentuan Mu Ya Allah,
SesungguhNya Engkau lebih mengetahui setiap hikmat disebalik setiap dugaan Mu Ya Allah,
Ku sedar ku hanya Khalifah Mu yang kerdil yang hanya dijadikan dari sekelumit Kekuasaan MU Ya Allah,
Ku menerima dugaan ini dengan penuh rendah diri, walaupun ia perit tetapi...
Ku redha dan pasrah
Hanya kepada MU tempat ku mengadu dan hanya pada MU ku bertawakal.....

Ku hanya manusia biasa yang punya hati dan perasaan ;'o(

tears in my heart~

As the tears fall down my face,
I can feel all the disgrace,
It won't leave me alone.
As the pain destoys my heart,
Love is ripped worlds apart,
It won't let me go.
It aches somewhere deep,
A knowing pain won't let me sleep,
It won't cease.
You were the one for me,
Now you're gone and cannot see,
It won't blind me.
She had to go and take you,
Now it will bring me to,
It will kill me.

Hamba MU

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku..
bantulah hamba MU ini...
Berat sungguh bebanan dan tanggungan didalam hati ku ini...


Amin....

Miss u dear...

Start to miss u....
It only 7 hours after u left me...
U my best pal dear...
I'm lonely after u're gone...
No more u to cheer me up...
No more u to make me laugh...
No more reason fr me to come back early from work every day....
Because u will not be there for me anymore...
But i know ...u left me to be with The One... Allah s.w.t...
Its the best place for u
Hope u n i will meet again...someday...

Insya'Allah

May u rest in peace~

12.01.09, Al Fatihah

became my best memories....now what is left is just memories..
sharp 10.15am this morning....
my dear sweetheart had left me forever..
it is a very hard time n sad moment for us...
c him dying infront of me...
it hard for me to let him go...
this morning is the last moment for me and him...
i and mama hardly cried...
we cant believe it...he no longer be with us to cheer we up dgn keletah dia..
Allah s.w.t lebih sayangkan dia...by the time doc sad.."i'm so sorry...this is it last moment" last breath....."its hard for me to say it"...hope u understand..i've tried my best...."
Its ok doc..i understand...
the doctor also cried and share that moment the with us
i cant accept it! doc said its in tipical/critical conditions....
the virus had infected its brain and had stopped it....
itulah kebesaran Allah...bebile saja leh memberi dan mengambil sesuatu dgn kehendakNya...
Kunfayakun...jadilah...
Ku redha...Q'ais u've being nice to us n also be our best friend n family...
Thanks dear...kakak luv u so much...
even u no longer b with me but u'll be in my heart forever..
nobody can take it from me...
Ayah tried to calm me once he saw me crying hardly in the car while holding Q'ais...
i have to accept it...
after we barried Q'ais..I,b and my bro sedekahkan al-Fatihah
i tenang lps Q'ais...i redha...

"Ya Allah ku redha dengan ketentuan dan kekuasaan mu..."

Ma, Ayah, Bro and my dear "b"........thanks


Al Fatihah...utkmu Q'ais


We always luv u sweetheart


In memory "Q'ais"

2009

new year....new status...new responsibilities...new life...
i think???!!!